february 17

i woke up with bright red hair today. i gotta get used to it, but i really like it. its something different and thats what i needed.

they told us all of the spring due dates for the grad project. i get stressed even when i hear that word. or those words. tonight im going to the library for it. gag. i need a print source, and its hard to find newspaper articles online about print journalism. so to the library im going.

i dont have much to say today. im stressed and flustered and not in the right mindset to blog. so more tomorrow.

quote of the day: "as usual, there is a great woman behind every idiot." -john lennon
word of the day: frothy (adj): bubbling, bubbly, effervescing, foaming, foamy

february 13

i skipped yesterday. i hate when i forget stuff like this. oh well. yesterday was our deadline in yearbook, so for the whole hour and a half i was rushing in and out of the room, taking pictures, uploading them, adding captions, sorting through them on the y drive, finalizing, and finally submitting all my pages (all 26 of them). the senior portraits were the really stressful part. and the art page was assigned to someone else who's on the staff now, but i ended up doing it. so thankfully mrs. lynn ignored my first mistake of the period. (my senior portrait spreads were supposed to be turned in at the beginning of fourth period.)

anyway, that stress is over and done with. last night at work was great for once. it started snowing while i was there, so of course mom was blowing up my phone with texts telling me to be careful and stuff. but anyway, sometimes when i'm working, doing stuff like sweeping or bussing tables, i think about all the things that i need to do. like last night, it was my sketchbook and my second graduation project editorial. and i start getting stressed out. but last night i told myself that there's no need to stress over something that i can get done. so i'm not gonna worry about it.

i'm tired of the snow. it always happens on fridays, when we're not in school, and it ruins any weekend plans that i have. but thankfully sam and i are still going to olive garden with her family tonight. i'm excited.

mrs. goodnight gave me a new altered book to start on, since i never worked on my last one anymore. i think i actually threw it away because i got so agitated with trying to get things together in it. she told me to just really take my time with it. like, a lot of time. so the book she gave me is called luther tarbox, and it's about a fisherman who loves his wife and the sea. there's really cool pictures in it. i like nautical stuff a lot anyway. i'm going to read the story first before i start on it.

my new plans for this summer: work more, buy an apartment in lexington, start dccc on august 16.

that's all for today.

I knew last night at work would suck. I mean, I'm not a little kid who doesn't know how to do anything. I'm 17 years old. I'm fully competent. I know how to write a fucking ticket. Just because I don't do everything exactly the way you want doesn't mean the world is gonna end. None of the other managers care.

ANYWAY. I'm off tonight, and I feel really relieved to say that. Because this is what I'm doing this afternoon: going to the doctor, going home, starting laundry, sleeping until 6:15, going to eat with Richie on his break, coming home, sleeping some more, and practicing my presentation. And that's like my ideal afternoon (minus the practice and laundry parts).

Have I really gotten to the point in my life where I'd rather stay home and sleep than make plans? I guess I have. I don't really care. It's better to learn when you're young that life isn't always peaches and bubble baths, in my opinion. That way, you're less likely to have a mid-life crisis.

My theories are stupid. But I'd like to think that they work for me.

I read somewhere the other day, I think in someone's Facebook quotes, something that said, "SUCK IT UP, PRINCESS." So that's what I've started telling myself when I start to complain, or if I'm tired and annoyed and stressed. (So I'm saying that to myself a lot.)

I've had my iPod on shuffle, and "Champagne Supernova" by Oasis just started playing. I forgot that I even had that song on here. I love it. I miss listening to it. It's one of those classics. I love going back and listening to songs that I used to love in like, 8th grade. The other day I listened to "Rockaway Beach" by The Ramones. That was my favorite song by them! I was in such a fix on them when I was 14. Haha. I remember making a shirt with Dee Dee Ramone playing bass on it. That's another thing I miss doing - making t-shirts (am I rambling..?) I had a Ben Folds shirt, an 'I Heart NM' shirt (I heart New Mexico), a shirt that said 'Who's Your Daddy?' with a picture of Darth Vader, and so many others. They definitely don't fit anymore though. I have been wanting to make a sundress with some Star Wars fabric though. Not sure if that will happen anytime soon.

Kayla let me borrow her new Paramore cd to make myself a copy, and it's soooo good. I haven't stopped listening to it since yesterday. Haha.

Well, I really am starting to ramble, so BYAH