february 22

today has been really boring. im going to the mellow mushroom this weekend <3 barnes and noble didnt have the heroin diaries, which really surprised me, but anyway i got todd the kurt cobain journals and a guitar world magazine with them crooked vultures on the front (we love them). and a one year old card. he loved it, im so glad. he deserved it.

nothing to talk about, maybe ill write tomorrow.

february 21

heheh. not much to say today, other than i hate it when people act like they know whats going on with you. and they really dont. richie and i broke up, i guess the whole fucking world knows that by now, but can everyone please stop making me feel like hitler for it. its nothing to do with him, i just dont want to date anyone.

also, i hate when people think that would've means would of. its would have. would have. would have. what a bright world we live in.

i bought the fame monster yesterday, a little late but YAY anyway. i will be cranking that first thing today. its early for me, because im going to church. i never go to church. this feels weeeeird!

tonight im giving my little todd his bday present. i ended up getting him a one year old card too, with a teddy bear on it. and they didnt have the heroin diaries (of course..) so i got him kurt cobain's journals. i read some of them last night.. soooo cool. im going to go buy it for myself.

i hope everyone has had a great weekend, im going to the house of the lord now.

quote of the day: i'm so ugly, that's okay, cause so are you. -kc

february 20

i had to put another picture of her, because i love this one so much. today i am going to buy the heroin diaries, by nikki sixx for todd. it is his favorite book. he told me that he couldnt bring himself to buy it. so im going to.

happy first birthday i love u.

february 19

life goes on. and i love lady gaga. that on her wrist is the matching tattoo tyler and i are getting. im getting my anchor on my right arm. and that on my left. and probably 'i believe them bones are me' (from an aic song) underneath it. just to make it my own in a way i guess. but i do love gaga, she's become my latest obsession. its weird and unlike me. but shes so out there, shes like her own work of art. thats why i like her so much.

today is my hero's first birthday. todd has been sober for a year and im so proud of him. i hope he knows that. rejoice world, have a great day todd, you deserve it i love you.

"it is time for congress to knock down the barriers to treatment and recovery for twenty six million americans suffering the ravages of alcohol and drug addiction."